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Saturday, December 31, 2016

2016年底去 Yosemite 的感想

出去走一走,总比呆在家里什么都不做来得有意义。总呆家里是舒服,可以舒服久了就体会不到舒服,反而会空虚哦。出去走一走——去国家公园里看看——乍地一看好像没什么好看,没什么好玩,但其实是因为我没有找到自己喜欢的路子。像有的人喜欢看风景,他们光是去到那些景区看到那些平日看不到的风景就很高兴了。我是不会的。我对风景的兴趣不是很大,所以都记不太住自己之前去过的那些地方。但是,这次去Yosemite,就发觉自己可以挖掘出一些其他自己真正从内心觉得好玩的事情。

一是认真去读、去思考当地的介绍。不只是走马观花地读哦,是要思考的,是要读进去的。这样到了一个地方Hike,就会饶有兴趣地对照自己所学的知识。而这些知识也会成为积累,以后也可以拿来用的。

二是拿手机照片。这里有两点哦。第一是用手机。我发觉用手机拍照比正规的相机要来得灵活、方便、随意。我是很适合用手机拍的。以后要买个拍照好的手机。第二是拍照可以搞怪哦,不然很无聊呢。

三是可以做一些运动,比如滑冰啊,滑雪什么的。比较好玩

Saturday, September 10, 2016

Fleabag the TV mini series

It's funny on the outside, but depressing at the core.

You make terrible mistakes. You don't want to, but you cannot help it. Lack of self control drowns you in the swirl of misery. You are helpless. The entire world seems to have turned its back on you - yet, you deserve it. You arm yourself with sarcastic funny wits as if you don't care, but you know you do; you know how much you want to make terms and lift yourself up.

But you are trapped in this no man's land. No light in sight.

Lonely. It is fucking lonely.

Friday, September 9, 2016

Why has I not started writing yet?

I have had this idea for a long time. On and off.

I understand it is a good thing. It helps me to organize my thoughts, to think deeply, and to propel me to take interest in various things, and to observe. It is more or less like a portal that connects my minds to the world.

But then why has I not made writing a part of life yet?

It is an old issue of mine. I think too much, but act much less. Or I act for a while, then I gradually let it slip away.

I have tried various methods. To-do list. Motto on the desk. All failed.

The crux seems to be that there is no ongoing motivation to keep me going. So my dedication dwindles away overtime.

It not only applies to writing, but many other things. Such as guitar, taichi, etc.

To address the issue, I need to know how exactly I should get myself motivated. And luckily, I know how.

I am actually a people person - this may come as a surprise to many who know me - but you hear me right. I care a great deal about my interactions with others.

Just imagine, if I had a group of friends who are into writing, and we regularly discuss or critique each other's work, I would certainly go further than I could have on my own.

I like to have such group of friends, who would certainly serve as my motivation. And doing things like this rather than gathering for meals is actually much more appealing to me.

Sadly I don't have these friends, yet. But fear not. I can make this a conscious goal - to make like-minded friends.

Asides, I can show my work to existing friends and hear their opinions, instead of keeping everything to my own.

Saturday, September 3, 2016

Likes

Watch movies from these directors: Nolan, 王家卫,杨庆,忻钰坤

Search for short animated films, such as "Zeinek Gehiago Iraun".


Listen to New Age: Ki
taro, Karunesh
Listen to the following singers: James Blunt, Damien Rice, Adele
听这些民谣歌手:马頔,宋冬野,李志,赵雷

可以唱的歌:恋恋风尘,同桌的你,盛夏的果实,外面的世界

Read novels from Dan Brown


Monday, August 1, 2016

话说一个男的

话说一个男的,脾气爆,饭上得慢了,也骂骂咧咧。女人受不了,就离了婚。这男的倒还不错,觉得女人不容易,就净身出户。女人离婚后,一直不是太顺当。从来一个人,后来还查出了恶疾,钱去如流水,眼看家底就要空了。

这天女人在外头办事,远远的看到一对夫妇过来。那男的,不就是前夫么?真没想到,不过几年过去,他变了好多。胖了。现任的妻子(或是女朋友)不知道在数落他什么,他不回嘴,脸上堆着讨好的笑 —— 从前哪,他哪里会这个样子!

那男的不经意抬起头,也看到女人。脸上一时挂不住,转开眼去,想装住不认识,但又觉得此地无银,何必呢,都过去好些年了 —— 又看了过来。眼角瞅着妻子一个不留意,悄悄地冲她点点头。女人也微微示意,就不再理他,埋下头做自己的事 —— 做什么事呢?心里微澜,好一会儿才平息了下来。

事情完了,女人正要走,就看到那男的鬼鬼祟祟地走过来,身上还挂着女式的皮包,可疑又滑稽。他大咧咧地问,还好呗?女人还没回答,他又说,咳,好啥呀,看你瘦成啥样了!女人心里泛起一阵酸,也不知要说什么。后来就聊了聊近况。本没想说自己的病,但一副病恹恹的样子,他又追问了几句,也就都说了。他问,你缺钱呗?女人说还好。他明显不信,说等着。然后就出去了下,又鬼鬼祟祟地跑回来,从皮包里抽出一叠钱,叫女人收着。女人不要,他硬塞,说拿着,我存了好久的私房钱容易么!千万别让我婆娘知道,不然准得跟我闹!他看着女人接过钱,说,我得走了,我那婆娘也该逛完店了!

女人看着他的背影,心里百感交集。后悔么?后悔当初离婚么?倒是没有。要是没离婚,指不定他现在啥样呢!只是这人哪,人生哪,透过时光的甬道,总叫人唏嘘 —— 没什么道理。

Arises, and passes away

Everything arises, and passes away.

Impermanence.

Anicca.

If there is anything that I should keep in mind during meditation and any moment in daily life, this would be it.

Observe the nature of law through one's own experience.

Watch the body sensations arises, and passes away.

Watch the mental feelings arises, and passes away.

Stay detached to whatever sensations or feelings. Stay in the present in this moment. Look beyond this I, my, mine.

May all beings be happy.

Sunday, July 31, 2016

Would you have dinner with me tonight?

I see you in the trees,
I see you in the stars.
I see you in the heat of the days, in the chill of the nights.
I breath you in,
I breath you out.
I see you dancing on my sensations above and below.
So, my inspiration, yet my biggest hindrance to higher awareness,
would you have dinner with me tonight?